Conversation with my Patron. Usually I don't share these, as they're kind of private, but this one needs to be here, for context. Me: I'm sorry, but I can't find the will to keep blogging anymore after the stalking scare. I feel like a disappointment to You and to my title. LR: I understand, my … Continue reading A funny thing happened on the way to becoming a book blogger…
My hands are shaking as I type this. I know people say that a lot, but this is the most terrified I've felt since I moved up to Ohio. If you are a member of my biological family, I DO NOT WANT YOU READING THIS BLOG. I do not want your money. I do not … Continue reading A warning to my bespoke stalker.
“I believe in everything until it's disproved. So I believe in fairies, the myths, dragons. It all exists, even if it's in your mind. Who's to say that dreams and nightmares aren't as real as the here and now?” -John Lennon View the full list of prompts here. This post was partially inspired by the … Continue reading 31 Days of Spiritual Journaling, Day One
So I have spent the past few weeks having revelations. As per usual, this happened when I wasn’t at all trying to do it, and had even half-decided to take a break from actively practicing pop culture paganism - I’ve really been in the habit of holding myself back when it comes to PCP, although … Continue reading Pop Culture Paganism and Religious Trauma: Why I Worship at the Altar of Things, by Fin Lockhart (GUEST POST)
Hi all! We’re the Violent Trans Empire, a multiple system composed of two people: Skylar, the host, and Missy, a Doctor Who fictive. We’re in an in-system relationship, which is usually the most We tell people about Ourselves, but there’s much more to it than that. It would be nice to have an easy way … Continue reading GUEST POST: Kink and Devotion, with the Violent Trans Empire
I tried to rewrite some of the megachurch worship hits I grew up with about my current Patron once. I could feel him shouting for me to stop.
By R.L. Stollar, HA Community Coordinator
Growing up evangelical, I listened to a lot of Contemporary Christian Music (CCM). I never understood the whole “rock music causes demons to eat your brain” mentality. But I did understand — to some extent — their point that Christian rock music was just normal rock music with “Jesus” pasted on top. To my friends and I, that wasn’t actually an intelligent critique. It was more a joke, something we all laughed about.
Fact is, my peers and I often thought it was funny that many CCM songs appeared to be sexy romance songs where the “you” was just capitalized so it suddenly was about Jesus rather than a hot piece of man-flesh. And some CCM bands — Skillet, most of all — have lyrics that are so spiritually kinky, even actual kinksters might blush.
So to honor this humorous memory of CCM’s…
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“I finally know the difference between pleasing and loving, obeying and respecting. It has taken me so many years to be okay with being different, and with being this alive, this intense.” ― Eve Ensler Having done much of my spiritual development in an authoritarian, patriarchal sect of Christianity, I have complicated thoughts about respect and … Continue reading Reclaiming Respect
Fun fact about me, dear imaginary audience: I am a loser. I'm not joking. I'm an absolute lowlife, a world-class degenerate, the scourge of the American people. I'm a millennial with no job, no money, and no college degree, and I flit between being proud of my independence and being deeply ashamed of my lack of it.
So, loyal readers (I know no one reads this, but it makes me feel better about myself to pretend I have an audience), it's been a while since you last heard from me. But today I'm finally in a mood to talk about myself, so here that goes. This is the first year in a … Continue reading A Very Pop Culture Pagan Christmas
Part one of a series in which I talk about my relationship to the Divine and various other concepts before and after Evangelicalism.